The End Of Our Story Together
This is the end. My apologies to anyone who liked my content but I don’t really see a reason to continue. I’m glad to have done what I have done and to have helped the people that I have helped. But the fact is that I’ve been managing this site for the past 3 or so years, putting my heart and soul into it, and they reach nobody. Not only that, but they are almost all met with hatred and vitriol by many people. I wanted to push people to follow Christ and what the Bible says but, I think in total during this ministry, I’ve only seriously reached about a hundred people or less. If you check pretty much all of my most popular articles since I started talking about Christianity, the popularity is solely people who hate what I’m saying. I still believe in Christ, I am still an advocate for Christ, but to continue trying to reach people through this website nonsense is a waste of time. There are many more talented people who do what I have been trying to do better. Maybe, one of you will take up the mantle and make your own site and take the ideas further than I have, but I can’t be bothered to keep trying the same thing over and over again expecting a different result.
The truth is, I wanted to make money by getting attention. Now I don’t care about money and only want attention. I want you to want me. I need that so badly I could cry and hurt myself if you would take a look and see. My tantrums and outbursts don’t even earn a passing glance. I have no talents or creative skills that are worth noticing. The most important thing to me was that I could prove to my parents and everyone who ever looked down on me that I was more important than them. It turns out I am not. In fact, in some ways, I’m worse because I wasn’t smart enough to realize that in the first place. Nothing in my life has worked out how I would’ve liked, and if I continue screwing around online, I will end up in a much worse place than I ever could have had I never logged on. All this virtual world has given me is disappointment. I wanted to be like all the people on the screen, whom I love and cherish more than anyone I know in real life. So that someone could love me more than anyone in their real life. My expectation was that people would give me money, sex, fame, and attention. None of this happened. I have no idea what I’m going to do, but I must first admit that I’m a failure. I’ve already wasted so much time I can only get a dead-end job and wait until my parents die to finally get their house. It is very likely I’ll never find a partner or have children. If I do, they will only be ashamed of having to settle for a human like me in their lives. Anything I do will be less demoralizing than continue working on content nobody cares to see.
Just kidding.
By walking away, I am turning down material gain, influence, power, and success in the pursuit of the argument, universals, and my true self. I am sure people in the movement will be angry, frustrated, annoyed, put-out, pained, or saddened by my decision. A lot of people also won’t care since the world keeps turning and I have been abundantly transparent for months now about my general direction. Many people will be relieved since my big fat butt was in the way 🙂
Maybe I will come back some time in the future, under a different name, with a different site, maybe a different face. But until then, this is Goodbye. I thank you all for the good times and the love and support.
Thank you and I am confident this offers the finality that people have been hoping for.
The greatest adventure is what lies ahead.
May I rest in peace.
Chunks lifted from Steve Franssen’s and Urfriendlyhood’s farewell addresses.
